We spend a good part of our life teaching the most stubborn and
egocentric of humanity not to be selfish. Our kids! Not to mention, our
every excuse to be selfish was ripped out from under us the moment we
became a mother. We used to spend a ridiculous amount of money and time
on things like clothes, hair, makeup and having the best body we can so
that we could feel good about ourselves. We all go through that phase in
life and it’s part of learning who we are but a single mother doesn’t
live for herself anymore because we found out that living for someone
else is better than living for ourselves.
There’s a reason I don’t let just anyone into my daughter's life. She is one of the most important people in my life. I care more about her getting
hurt than myself getting hurt. I can forgive someone who hurts me and I can even
give them a second chance but when it comes to those who selfishly take
my her for granted, completely unacceptable! And the quickest way to
get me to shut the door in your face.
I walked away from a life where I didn’t have to work and could go
shopping and vacationing whenever I felt like it. And now? I’m working
on making my own money which thrills me a lot more than fancy clothes,
jewelry and vacations. But by all means, go ahead and buy me things.
Just don’t be surprised when I walk away because I’ve run out of
patience for your need to fulfill your ego with materialistic trophies.
Because I have something you’ll never be able to buy and it’s not my
fault you’re too self absorbed to see this.
I guess you can say my standards are probably higher than ever before but considering the idiots I’ve wasted my time on, this is completely justified. However, I’ll never give up hope that there’s a man out there strong enough to handle me. In the mean time, I think I’ll have fun enjoying some me and little girl time